His fathers son
Jan. 6th, 2012 03:04 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tumultofdarknessAchilies groaned as he started to wake, bringing a hand up to his chest. Even after the Darkness had settled, it still left an ache in his Heart. Or maybe it was from what he'd seen.
"Are you alright, son?"
He looked towards the voice and saw the face of his worried father. He groaned and sat up.
"Yeah. Thanks for taking me down again."
Zack just frowned.
"You know I don't like having to. Think maybe next time you could tell me that things are getting out of hand so I can restrain you instead?"
"It came on suddenly this time."
In fact, it had been coming on suddenly quite a lot lately. Which meant it was getting worse.
Zack was quiet for a while, trying to think of some way to help his son, but then Achilies interrupted his thoughts.
"...How did you deal with it? When you thought you couldn't ever be with Mom?"
The question took Zack by surprise, but then he sighed.
"So this is about Liana?"
Achilies flinched, looking away...Then nodded.
"Which means, in my case, I'm not gonna just be able to wait for the day when the girl I love shows up. She's already here, and in love with someone else."
Zack was silent, and it took a while before Achilies realized that he'd admitted not just to liking Liana, but to being in love with her. He just gritted his teeth, face going a bit red before looking at his father again.
"Well? How'd you do it?"
Zack sighed again.
"By gaining a very bad reputation for myself. Which you shouldn't repeat. Achilies, you have to learn to move on. Doing what I did won't fix anything. The relief you get from it is just temporary."
But he'd said enough. All Achilies needed to know was that it would give any relief, for any amount of time, and he'd made up his mind.
"....Yeah..Sure."
If that was what it took to stop the pain, then he'd do it. If he wasn't hurting all the time, his Darkness would be more manageable. Everyone would be better off.
Even if it was just a temporary solution. He didn't care. He just wanted a way to make it this pain go away.
He would become his fathers son after all.
"Are you alright, son?"
He looked towards the voice and saw the face of his worried father. He groaned and sat up.
"Yeah. Thanks for taking me down again."
Zack just frowned.
"You know I don't like having to. Think maybe next time you could tell me that things are getting out of hand so I can restrain you instead?"
"It came on suddenly this time."
In fact, it had been coming on suddenly quite a lot lately. Which meant it was getting worse.
Zack was quiet for a while, trying to think of some way to help his son, but then Achilies interrupted his thoughts.
"...How did you deal with it? When you thought you couldn't ever be with Mom?"
The question took Zack by surprise, but then he sighed.
"So this is about Liana?"
Achilies flinched, looking away...Then nodded.
"Which means, in my case, I'm not gonna just be able to wait for the day when the girl I love shows up. She's already here, and in love with someone else."
Zack was silent, and it took a while before Achilies realized that he'd admitted not just to liking Liana, but to being in love with her. He just gritted his teeth, face going a bit red before looking at his father again.
"Well? How'd you do it?"
Zack sighed again.
"By gaining a very bad reputation for myself. Which you shouldn't repeat. Achilies, you have to learn to move on. Doing what I did won't fix anything. The relief you get from it is just temporary."
But he'd said enough. All Achilies needed to know was that it would give any relief, for any amount of time, and he'd made up his mind.
"....Yeah..Sure."
If that was what it took to stop the pain, then he'd do it. If he wasn't hurting all the time, his Darkness would be more manageable. Everyone would be better off.
Even if it was just a temporary solution. He didn't care. He just wanted a way to make it this pain go away.
He would become his fathers son after all.
